So it has been a year since, to be precise it has been one year and four months since I turned back and decided to go back to the ONE who loved me first even before I came into existence.
I want to share a few lessons I have learned over the year, and I must say that it has been the BEST year of my life.
1. GOD NEVER GIVES UP ON YOU
I can now actually look back and I get to see how God was relentless in His pursuit to save me from myself. I got so many convictions that I ignored until I could not ignore anymore. Recently a friend of mine mentioned she was praying for me every morning she would go out to pray about a certain area of my life and I believe those prayers are what God used to get me back.
I got to the point where I would have sleepless nights and I would smile on the outside but I was miserable and I knew things had to change so I had a choice of either continue in my pitiful situation or change things. I am glad I got the convictions and God used those around me to turn my attention back to Him.
God will do anything to get your attention drawn back to Him, He loves you so much that He would even take away some things or people from you rather that watch you self destruct. He is so passionate about humanity that He gave up His ONLY son to die on the cross for us, its amazing to know such an amazing God who does not NEED me WANTS me! It blows me away to know He would customize situations and place certain people in my life in order to get me back to Him.
Deuteronomy 31:8: It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
2. ITS NEVER TOO LATE
Ever felt like you have messed up so much? you have done so many bad things that God would not want you?
That is a lie from the devil! I believed that lie, I felt like it was too late for me to turn back and ask for forgiveness and start over. Like His word says He stands at the door knocking and whoever will open the door and let Him in, He will dwell there. He is constantly giving us opportunities to turn to Him, to choose Him and walk with Him.
If you are reading this and you have not received Him as your Savior or you did in the past and now you seem to have wandered off, I just want to tell you that He is right there ready to receive you with open arms and wipe the slate clean, He will remember your sins no more. He will make you new and you no longer have to hold on to unforgiveness, shame, pain or guilt.
All you need to do is repent and ask Him to come into your heart and believe in your heart that Jesus died on the cross for your sins.
1 John 1:9: If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Hebrews 8:12 : For I will be merciful toward their iniquities, and I will remember their sins no more.”
3. HE WILL LEAD YOU
For the longest time I believed that being a Christian meant that I had to work so hard to be good hence I decided that it would require so much effort that I do not want to put in and after all I had failed so many times.
Christianity is usually seen as a difficult way to live but in my opinion its just the simplest and uncomplicated way you can live. Do not get me wrong yes there will be challenges what I mean is, for the longest time Christianity has been confused with religion where you are meant to adhere to certain rules. When it is a completely different thing, this is where God places the Holy Spirit to lead you and to show you the way to live, as a Christian when you finally decide to follow the leading of the Spirit instead of trying to do things through your own strength is when true freedom is realized.
So all you need to do is to ask Him to help you live by His word, grow your relationship with Him, read His word, spend time with Him.
John 14:26: But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my
name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all
that I have said to you.
Romans 8:26: Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know
what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us
with groanings too deep for words.
In this day and age where it seems easier to live by our own rules and do things just because other people are doing and disregard what God says concerning certain things it is so easy to start with so much zeal for Christ but only after sometime get yourself back to where you began or even in a worse condition.
My message is that ...life outside Christ is worthless and meaningless, and that is why we run around looking for comfort in relationships, drugs, alcohol, etc but always end up empty. Until the day as a human being you come to the realization that Christ is the only one who can fill that void is the day when you will be free in this life.
I will share more on the lessons learned with time and some of the things I have seen God do in my life. It is the best decision I have ever made in my life and will ever make and so the journey of getting back to my first love continues and I am excited to see what He has in store for me.
